! Sometimes !

Sometimes I feel I'm lost and I'm standing in a happy world,  where I'm happy too, but the deepest inner spot in me is the saddest on Earth. Feeling that there's one-missing-puzzle-piece. One-missing-inner-peace !

That peace you absorb when you read Quran and ayat send seismic waves to you, or when spasms shake your body when talk with the creator, when you tell Allah all what you feel. That peace you feel when you feel every lil' bit in every word in the dua'. That inner peace you enjoy when you think of Allah sunhanahu wa taa'la in each second tick-tocked; with each heartbeat; with every blink; and in each single thought.

Living for Dunyah isn't said but done! You, I and we seek to have the newest mobile,  the trendiest chic clothes, and the coolest most professional photo, then we forget about who graced us with all of this. We forget about why we are ACTUALLY living. Are we here for nothing. "Nothing" when actually compared to stuff that we've never seen and can never imagine or even think of. Not even sure we'll see, are you? Are we good enough to be SURE?

Can't we remember that our REAL home is in Jannah? Our happy ever-lasting place. We're so shallow, aren't we? HUMANS. Humans, who only care about some useless stuff. Shallow we are, when we don't think of him ALL the time. We only do when we need him and despite this stupid "human" trend, Allah gives us what we ask for and then we forget once more. Dumb, aren't we?

Oh Allahs save me and whoever reads this from these "human" actions;  from not-thinking-about-you with each heartbeat and every blink; from retuning to you only in need; from thinking we're doing good, while we're fooled by our polluted niyyah; from saying and never doing;  from criticising others and forgetting about our own mistakes; and from following something wrong, thinking it's correct.

Roba Hamza