Real shame

I feel ashamed of myself. Real ashamed...because not concentrating in salat is a real shame. How dare you? How dare you my inner self be that brave to take my heart away and grab it off the prayer? Why do you want me be that shallow??

I am embarrassed to compare my cheap prayer with of the prophet's PBUH....or even his companions'. How come didn't I still cry for the miserable miserable me? and didn't feel sorry for the stupid dumb me? The poor me that couldn't reach that level of a prayer; that concentrated with the sounds around and pictures on the floor, instead of focusing in verses of quran.

It's a genuine blessing, if you nailed it and became one of those who are able to only focus in prayer. It's so amazing masha'Allah if anyone is capable of grabbing his or her heart of Dunyah and reaching that chance of concentrating to the point that all his or her senses and body were almost not in this world, but flying somewhere else where he or she can find the true meaning of happiness. Wow! What a great blessing if someone finally perfected the prayer starting with Allahu Akbar and ending with Assalamu Allaykom.

That would then be one of my aims that I need to work on, because I am never worth a praise if the least I could do is just doing the moves and saying the words without being moved from the inside. How come I call myself praying if my body's here but my mind and thoughts are elsewhere? How come I represent Islam if I can't do the simplest thing of focusing in some few rakaas??

Yeah it's a real shame...and we all need to recheck ourselves and how we pray....and at least TRY to improve it. At the beginning it won't be perfect, but maybe one day we'll be able to truly PRAY.